1/24/2022

trying the same thing over and over again

will never work but what am i supposed to do about this fear 

i am terrified of leaving this home

this sanctuary of restriction 

and drought 

i am worried about becoming something that cannot be reversed

your magazine monster 

my perfect nightmare 

their lives.

you tell me to take these steps and i will be better but what if i take the wrong one?

what if i step out of line one too many times 

what if the number keeps getting higher 

until the control i used to have fades into a memory. 

what if I fall apart again, 

what if this time,

I can’t go back.


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