12/18/2021

These days 

I have grown bit too indulgent 

I have licked fingertip

after Fingertip 

Sucking blood off my pores 

These days,

I am afraid it may no longer be blood

I am afraid my skin 

And organs

Have been swept away too 

I fear that biting my nails

Has grown into eating whole fingers of mine

I fear I am becoming bones 

And that once I have devoured all that I can offer

You will be next 

You will be my next bad decision 

My next words, that I’ll think about over 

and over again 

Because These days,

I have grown greedy 

I have become senseless and numb and ravenous for feeling 

I have become treacherous 

I have become evil.

Because these days, 

Nothing is enough 

and I only 

    want more.